It took me a long time to learn how to do Sirsasana (Headstand). I was scared, and I was weak in the core, and my teachers got me to learn by kicking up against a wall. For the record, you will never learn it that way with me, because although kicking up helps overcome the fear, it doesn’t teach you the control or strength you need to move into headstand safely. And don’t even get me started on the danger to your neck!
This isn’t a tutorial (but if you want one, let me know, and I’ll do one).
It’s a reflection on the courage it takes to work towards something you want to achieve, but find frightening.
I never had any trouble with Sarvangasana (Shoulderstand). It doesn’t require as much strength, balance, or courage. So I didn’t get much by way of…personal development, if you will…from it.
Because I learned it against a wall, I had to relearn my technique to do Sirsasana in the middle of the room. I found that to overcome my fear of falling, I needed to learn to fall safely. My then husband, who had been a gymnast, taught me how to do that: only once I could fall, or fail, safely, did I feel confident to work on moving into a headstand with no support.
It’s gotten easier over the years. The fear has abated.
It’s a funny thing: headstand was so scary, and so impressive to me, until I could do it.
Now, not so much. It’s just something I can do.
Proof that it’s the working towards the goals that gives us the satisfaction, not necessarily actually reaching those goals.
Moral of the story?
Be brave enough to turn your world on its head.
Because that trying is where you develop mental and physical strength (and balance).
It’s the trying that brings the impossible into the achievable, the ordinary, the everyday.
It’s the trying that makes you someone who can turn the world on its head, without fear.